I have the urge to blog everytime I change my skin. But on the brighter side, gladly, I was able to stop myself from deleting my archives. Holidays are coming to an end and I haven't done anything meaningful. All I did was go shopping and did a little bit of jogging. Insomnia sucks a lot. I wanna sleep, but my body won't let me. Ahh. Whatever, I can't wait for Chinese New Year anyway. It will be time for you and me to get some red packets eh? :)

My personality is changing again. Most likely. I'm getting fed up at a lot of stuffs recently. People around me have devastated my emotions. I really feel that I need a break from all this bullshit alright. You're pushing me away and now you're pulling me back. Just what am I to you? Fyi, I'm not a fucking toy.

I lay down at my bed every night thinking what exactly have gotten into me. I found myself regretting most of things I've done in my life. I can't believe how awesome you actually thought you were. That kind of look in your eyes/face makes me wanna puke, seriously. Why are you always being so proud of yourself? I thought you were perfect but now I'm struggling to find the good points in you. After all you're just an total disgrace to male. I should kill myself for thinking you were such a fine guy. I must be blind. Oh, for crying out loud. Hate is a really strong word but I still have to tell you this. I hate you.

Anyway, I'm sorry to anyone of you who I've shown attitude at for no reason at all. I'm already feeling fucked up with myself too. Don't mind me. Thanks for understanding, if you really DO. I shall end this post. Bye. Off to catch Bleach.

Who doesn't long for someone to hold, that knows how to love you without being told?
Somebody tell me why I'm on my own, if there's a soul mate for everyone.